KISS

KISS - Keep It Simple, Stupid!  Becoming a healthier me is a journey not to be taken lightly and that is not going to be fast.  Everybody is different and because of that, everyone's journey will be different.  there are two types of journeys - generally speaking - the direct and the scenic.  They both get you were you want to go, one just gets you there faster than the other.  Kinda like flying to England vs taking a boat.  Flying is definitely faster and, therefore, you get to enjoy your destination a lot sooner.  Consider the boat.  Crossing the Atlantic is no easy trip.  There are lots of different things that you have to overcome.  The weather - sunshine, rain, wind.  Calm or Rocky seas.  Each comes with its own joys and challenges.  The sunshine allows for fun and enjoying the trip.  The wind, rain and rocky waters make you question your decision - why did I choose this route?  Why do I feel like this?  Will this trip ever end?  The journey to a healthier me is going to be just as unpredictable and unique as an Atlantic crossing.  I know I will have good days and bad days.  Sometimes the "sun will be shining" and there will be minimal obstacles.  Other times it will be "raining with rocky waters" and nothing will appear to be going right and will most definitely not be easy.  Learning and overcoming is key on those days.  I determine to make the most of my unique journey. On the hard days I will focus on my destination - a healthy me.  On the good days - enjoy!  So here is to my journey to being a healthier me!  I hope that if you decide to start your own journey - my trials, challenges and successes will encourage you.

Failure

Failure a word that I feel describes me best.  I get an idea, passion, dream and go full steam ahead only to fail.  Sometimes it's small screw-ups, other times it is major.  I often feel like I can't do anything right.  At this point I ask why, why even bother if all you are going to do is fail.  You would think that trying to do the right thing would be easy - at least in your head it is - no resistance there.  Rich people have it made.  They can have all of the medical tests necessary to make sure their body is working as it should, afford healthy, organic food and have someone cook it up for them.  All they have to do is open their mouths and put the food in.  I on the other hand have to plan ahead, drag a toddler to the store, get yelled at because I go over budget, make a mess of the meal (that looked perfect in my head).  Make a mess of the kitchen - for which I get "yelled" at.  Dinner is usually late.  My son is, therefore, often over-tired, grumpy and doesn't like what I attempted to make.  Microwavable dinners sound good - cheap, easy and most likely liked/ate by everyone.  So what if there is no nutritional value.  So what if you look and feel like an elephant.  I do now and I'm used to it.  Not fitting in my clothes, getting on the scale 10lbs heavier.  feeling alone, unloved, undesired.  As long as food tastes good adn I do what I want during the day that should be all that matters.  It's not though.  I hate who I am - consumed so much by me that I forget others.  If I'm going to give Skyler the best possible start in life it starts with nourishing his body, mind and soul with healthy "nutrition".  And to do that I must portray that in my life for monkey see, monkey do!!!

Starting Over

Starting over a lot heavier and with a lot more inches around my trouble spots.  I feel at this point I need to remind myself why I want to lose the weight and inches.  Health is a huge reason.  I want to look and feel healthy.  I've spend most of my life sick and/or tired.  I know that food plays a major role in how I feel as evidenced when I stopped eating meat.  I don't want to waste my life because I don't have the energy to live it.  When I got married I weighed 50lbs less and had a lot less inches than I do now.  I was still determined at that stage to lose weight and tone up, but I had energy.  I really didn't know what it meant to be fat/overweight.  this is the start.  I'm excited and scared.  I have never successfully overcome my bad habits to lose weight and be healthy.